Wednesday, September 26, 2012

getting old in my young age

I can't decide if I like the IOS 6 update for my iPhone. Somethings are annoying but I don't know if I just have to get used to it or if it's terrible or I'm just being an old lady about it. I started playing Jurassic Park a few months ago and I'm still pretty addicted. It's like Cityville, but people don't make as much fun of me for playing JP.

My blood is practically back to normal. My prolactin is off the charts-- which it shouldn't be because I'm not pregnant or breastfeeding. It was so high that it was somehow causing my body to metabolize my coumadin before my body could actually use it to keep my blood where it needs to be. I'm now taking about three times the dose of coumadin as last summer and it's almost back to normal. Meanwhile, I have medicine to help the prolactin drop down to where it should be. I take about 7 pills a day now. I have a seven-day pill box because I can very easily forget to take my medicine or in some cases I have taken it twice in the same day. I'm getting old in my young age.

I'm keeping busy with the crafting/writing gig to keep my mind off of the tumor and upcoming surgery. But also knowing that I have a large tumor where a baby should be, I find myself walking slower and taking it easier. As long as they get it out and I can still use my uterus, I'll be fine.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

rejoicing and complaining

Blogging, crafting, and writing are therapeutic-- to a degree. I made this button vase and jar recently. I have a tutorial and video here.

What I thought was just my endometriosis progressing turned out to be something different indeed. I went to my follow-up appointment with my high-risk OBGYN. We discussed the results of my fallopian tube procedure, which I already knew went well because I watched on a screen with my very own eyes as the dye travelled through my tubes and confirmed that they were not blocked from the endometriosis. My OBGYN confirmed that they were infact, fully functional and great but that I have a large fibroid tumor growing in my uterus.

The symptoms associated with uterine tumors are not anything out of the ordinary for me. Pelvic pressure and pain-- I've had for over a year from my endo. Heavy menstrual bleeding-- I have anyway because I take blood thinners because of my two blood clotting disorders.

I have to say, finding out that this was the culprit was very rewarding. Okay, yeah, I freaked out the entire first day I found out. But knowing that there was a reason I felt like I was getting sicker and I felt like I was on an emotional rollercoaster-- It's nice to know I'm not crazy or imagining these things.

They're doing more tests because I have three hormones that are irregularly high and low. They're doing more imaging of the tumor this upcoming week and then scheduling surgery. Surgery scares me-- I'm a high risk with my blood clotting issues as we learned last summer when I wound up with more than a dozen post-op blood clots in my lungs. It's scary. I won't deny that. But I also just want to get this show on the road so I can start rejoicing and complaining about babies instead.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

the wrath of my moping

Owl Plates by ceck0face
Owl Plates, a photo by Digital Heather on Flickr.

My husband bought me these very cute owl plates because he always gets me cute stuff but also because the wrath of my moping when I don't get something can be fierce.

My friend Lizz is always sending me txt messages that say something like, "Don't go to Hobby Lobby unless you have money because they got new owls in!" The other day I got a picture message that was an entire display of these plates, cookie jars, mugs, S&P shakers, etc. I immediately showed it to my husband-- who happened to be showering at the time, but this was an emergency.

I'm going to hang the owl-shaped plates on the wall and the dessert plates will be used as such. But when we have kids, I'm packing them away somewhere high and secretive so no one can even think about breaking them. I say this because I was that kid and I'm sure I ruined lots of stuff my mom loved.

Friday, September 14, 2012

a lot of guff

Melted Crayon Window by ceck0face
Melted Crayon Window, a photo by Digital Heather on Flickr.

This is one of my favorite DIY projects. There's something about crayons I will always love.

I recently discovered I've been plagiarized-- over a dozen times actually. I'm flattered and angered. Flangered. In all honesty, I've been having a lousy few weeks. My body feels like it's turning against me. It was rough enough but this new drama is the last thing I have time or energy to tackle.

I'm trying to focus my energy on happy stuff while I'm waiting for the thieves to remove my content. I take a lot of guff for watching shows like The Real Housewives of New Jersey-- but they have life lessons embedded too. I've learned a lot about dealing with people-- especially people you'd rather not deal with. I missed out on some of those lessons when I was home-schooled for high school. Also... "Holding onto anger makes you ugly." And Dina Manzo is far from ugly, so I'll consider her a reliable source.

So to keep me from stewing in my own anger, I'm working on new DIY projects for this month. I'm also planning out my costumes for NYC Comic Con in a few weeks. My husband and I are leaving Arizona for a bit to attend a wedding and visit with family. Thanks to my mother-in-law, we've got tickets to CC. I finally tried on my Ghostbuster flight suit this morning-- something I have been avoiding for fear it didn't fit anymore. Even though I weigh less than I did last year, I still weigh more than when I wore this costume in 2009 while promoting the next-gen Ghostbuster game. It fits just a tad more snug, but in all the right places. I feel more attractive in it now.

Monday, September 10, 2012

when I'm a millionaire

french lace cookie by ceck0face
french lace cookie, a photo by Digital Heather on Flickr.

This is a cookie recipe that I did an article for over the summer. You can check it out here.

Having said that, it's actually my one year anniversary writing on HubPages. Pretty crazy how time flies (excuse the cliche) but also I never saw this coming. I didn't think I'd stick it out and here I am.

I'm excited for Autumn! Along with the other 50 classic reasons, it also means the Arizona weather will cool down a tad and I can do tons of baking. I won't have to worry about my AC working that much harder when it's 115 degrees outside and I'm running the oven like a crazy lady. Small price to pay for doing things you love? Well no. Almost three hundred dollars for summertime electricity is far from small-- but someday when I'm a millionaire, it will be ;)

Sunday, September 9, 2012

sounds advanced but feels archaic

I came up with some neat wedding ideas for a Valentine's Day Wedding. You can read about it in my work blog. It was a nice excuse to dig out my wedding dress and wear it for a short make-shift iPhone photo shoot. Coming up on my one year wedding anniversary-- unbelievable! Wearing my dress made me realize where and approximately how much weight I lost. Always a plus for a plus size girl!

It's hard to believe it's been almost two months since I've blogged for leisure. I've been balancing my time between working at the bookstore, my online writing job, and 20 other miscellaneous aspects of my life. It's a stress-free juggling act, so no complaints.

We've been trying to make a baby for over 9 months now. Putting a number on that just makes me realize that we could have had a baby by now! My endometriosis has been progressing and I've had a good amount of rough days lately. I had my Fallopian tubes checked last week in a procedure that sounds advanced but feels archaic. They injected dye into my uterus via a catheter which was terrible enough but the uterus immediately cramps when a bunch of foreign dye is introduced. I got to watch the process on a screen as it happened and let's just say that Fallopian tubes are tiny like angel hair spaghetti-- not at all like the giant sausage casings that anatomy illustrations would have us believe. Long story short-- I lived. And my tubes are fully functional and free from endometrial scarring since my last surgery.